Autism and My Joy, My Love, My Son
Photo by Jean Melesaine
At a 1 ½ year old you did not say any words. You knew who were your parents and sisters.
I was very concerned and after speaking with my doctor I took you to the speech and hearing clinic at the local children’s hospital. After 30 minutes the evaluator said, “I think your son has autism, you should get that checked.”
Numb, I sat there for a moment and then I said, “WAIT! What did you say?” She repeated herself “autism, you should get that checked.” I stopped breathing. I felt like I was being punished, cussed out and my heart lost a beat. I was devastated. I wanted to pick you up, cover your ears and run, shield you from the bad words she was saying.
But the evaluator kept talking on and on. Never did she say where I could get help or what I should do. In my mind I said, “I came here for you to help him speak, not tell me YOU THINK he has autism and delayed motor skills.” I could not wait to leave the clinic. Who was this lady to tell me such a thing?
When the evaluation was over I fought back tears, placed you in your stroller, held my head up and walked out. I got in the car called your dad and broke down. I was so shaken I could not even start the car to drive home. Your dad said, “It’s okay baby, God will help us. He will be okay get another opinion.”
You see when you hear the word autism, you think the worst. My love, my joy, my son -- God gave you to us because he knew I was a different kind of woman. And your father was a different kind of man. and together we would not let you down. I’m glad God choose us to take care of one of his special children.
Now you are three and your father and I are on a mission to help you get the resources you need and to spread the news that autism is not a bad word.
To the parents of a special needs child never give up!
Photo by: Reginald Hailey
Sorry, the tears are getting in the way of me typing. It's has been a long tough road so far, but my husband and I are determined to stay focused to help our son and help others with our story and by sharing information. A person once told me being smart is not always knowing everything, but being able to know where to go to get the information.
For more information, and to connect with other parents of kids with autism, go to: www.myautismteam.com
I feel for your pain and my heart goes out to your boy. He's lucky to have loving parents like you and your husband. It's going to be a better life for him with you guys by his side.
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